Thursday, July 6th, 2006
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9:10 pm - wheelookatme
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Saturday, October 15th, 2005
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2:34 pm - in the words of an angry angry little girl
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evian agua (1:35:31 PM): i think hes suffering really really bad
evian agua (1:35:33 PM): and i want him to
evian agua (1:35:47 PM): he's suffering while im brooding in my hate for him
evian agua (1:36:42 PM): and one day randomly i'll get back together with him and we'll have reuniting sex
evian agua (1:36:53 PM): and in the middle ill pull out my knife and cut off his stuff
evian agua (1:37:12 PM): and i'll frame someone else like thomas
L3ViB (1:37:18 PM): HAHAHAHA
L3ViB (1:37:18 PM): fuck
evian agua (1:37:20 PM): so both their lives will forever be ruined
L3ViB (1:37:20 PM): that's fucked up
L3ViB (1:37:23 PM): don't say that
L3ViB (1:37:23 PM): please
evian agua (1:37:27 PM): why
L3ViB (1:37:27 PM): it hurts
evian agua (1:37:33 PM): oh okay
evian agua (1:37:34 PM): im just kidding
evian agua (1:37:37 PM): i never said it
L3ViB (1:37:40 PM): it hurts all guys when you say things like that
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(on the wrong side)
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Monday, June 20th, 2005
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9:07 pm
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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
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8:38 pm - i need to start doing homework for once
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current mood:  happy
current music: regina spektor - the ghost of coporate future
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(3 on the wrong side)
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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4:29 pm
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it should be perfectly reasonable to feel disgust towards every person you know. only every once in a while though. oh, and for no good reason too.
current mood:  angry
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(2 on the wrong side)
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Friday, March 11th, 2005
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2:22 am - take it outside
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i can always count on something to come up unexpectedly
current mood:  drunk
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(on the wrong side)
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Monday, March 7th, 2005
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5:37 am
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Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
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12:43 am - stop spitting out the secrets
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you feel for him so intensely at so many points and nothing else matters.
and don't bring up the other one. the only reason you ever loved him was because it was completely inconceivable that someone could bring you so much pain unless you did love them. (like the time your mom said something along the lines of making sure that your need for him was inspired by your love for him, instead of the other way around. and you ignored the flashing "codependency" inside your head and said as confidently as you could possibly pull from nothing that it was the former. ) you replaced self-destruction with the word love. self-destruction because you let it happen, and a word because that was all that it existed as.
you never floated, you never melted like you have in the past two weeks. you basically just crumbled and forgot the entire time. you feel limp and lifeless to remember what it felt like, only it was ten times worse then. in a way, it's something to be appreciative of. and again, appreciative for who is in front of you right now, but only if you want him.
(if only you stopped yourself from doubting it)
because comparisons like these are meaningless
and it's just not saying much really.
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: cat power - names
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(on the wrong side)
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Saturday, February 19th, 2005
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6:46 pm - chik 'n nuggets
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i should have never promised my mom i wouldn't walk around in my underwear in front of my boy roommates
current music: erase eratta
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(on the wrong side)
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Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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3:16 am - past two weeks in pictures
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
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7:23 pm
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check out my new tat
current mood:  good
current music: arcade fire - neighborhood #1
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(on the wrong side)
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Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
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3:53 pm
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i walked around campus grinning all day, and danced in the elevators.
and trust me, i'm the last person i thought it ever possible to feel this way.
current mood: happy
current music: !!! - pardon my freedom
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(1 on the wrong side)
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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
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4:34 am - i can tell the way you smile
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i'm so ridiculously happy. and to the point where i'm sure you'd be nauseated if you could genuinely read my face these days. i'm an in love with italian and giddy at the thought of studying in florence next fall, fascinated with the exploration of moving image, and am like a crushing little middle schooler about the boy asleep in my bed. i'm almost really good at completely ruining things but apparently not quite this time.
and even though i'm drinking too much, not sleeping enough and spending far too little time with myself everything is still okay.
( And she said, 'Roll out and make your mark. Pull on your boots and march.' )
current mood: good
current music: "the way i feel inside" by the zombies
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(5 on the wrong side)
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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
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12:32 am - good things come out of not doing your homework
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Monday, October 18th, 2004
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11:39 pm - you can never be strong, you can only be free
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i got a job! finally!
current mood:  accomplished
current music: jimmy eat world - game of pricks
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(on the wrong side)
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Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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5:10 pm - heartache, literally
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Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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9:04 pm
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Friday, August 27th, 2004
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8:59 pm - not yet but still getting there
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Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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11:31 am - nerd
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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1:58 am
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some sensible explanation (of life) needs to arrive on my door stop very soon please.
i'm too mixed up
between doctors and venice
the ER and crystals
straight hair and insomnia
i'm behind glass.
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(2 on the wrong side)
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